the wrong words

swimming in the eyes
of just another one who lies
my blood rushes like the tide
i don't know what to say
the right words won't come out anyway
so i just smile and watch
another preciious day just slip away
it's like screaming underwater
nobody can hear me
and i don't know what to do
i've never done this before
and i'm scared
i always just grin and bear it
but this time i might just be
too close to breaking
the right words won't come out anyway
so ijust smile and watch as
another precious day just slips away
i've fallen into a habit of fear
i have this fear of rejection
but it's all just in my perception
and i don't know
i just don't know
is there really no other way?
all i want is to be love that way
all this is is shame
and my life is such a game
but this game is too precious to lose
and i don't want to blow a fuse
won't anyone help me to adjust,
slowly help me through?
because i need you to
because i need You
the right words won't come out anyways
so i just smile and watch as
another precious day just slips away

Screaming

Two armies meet


Alike but different

Alike but different

Two armies meet

Every face the same

And the ground is soaked

In blood and tears

And it's been like this for years

And it's been like this for years

And the war rages on

In my head

In my head

There's no hope of a dawn

In my head

In my head

And I fight myself

And the pain shows on my face

And you see every trace

Still the war rages on

In my head

In my head

I strike on until I'm dead

And the war...goes...on...



You pull me from my sinking boat

So that I will not drown

You say dying is no joke

I shouldn't beat myself down

I've long forgotten the cause of war

Now its' just for hate

In my veins there's no blood anymore

Still I stand before the gate

Screaming...



Still the war rages on

In my head

In my head

And then my brain is dead

Yeah, it's dead

So very dead



I can see that you've forgotten

The cost of true love

You'll never reach the lowest den

You'll forever stay above



The sun hits

And you'll burn

Burn until you're dead

In my head

Jump across

Try to flee

You'll never be able to

Outscream me



And even after we're all gone

Long gone

Long gone

The war will rage on

In my head

In my head

And my war will rage on

'Cause it's been like this for years

And it's been like this for years

Nightmare Carousel

Trust me when I tell you


My mind is a scary place to be

Trust me when I tell you

I wish this was only a scary dream

...

Sometimes I feel like I'm wearing a


Mask

To try to hide my face from the people I want to love me.

I'm weaving a lie to make myself

Look unlike me.

The mask is only there behind a veil of secrets and mists

Of shyness.

Shyness not like you would think,

Just the shyness of a girl who

Doesn't know

Who

She
Is.